"You are the best damn thing my eyes have ever seen." Words sung by Avril Lavigne.
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Who is this man looking back at me? I no longer know whether still I am disappointed in who I am. But I see a weary face, a hurt face still longing for happiness and still failing at each and every hurdle placed before my weary legs. I know only how to persevere, yet at this stage an ending would feel like a bliss. I wonder though...can I really contemplate life without life? What beginning would I find in such an ending? Would I yet again be putting my faith and so life in the hands of a God whom I feel has left me alone for so long? As a Child I sought only to bring people happiness. I hid every problem, I played down every wound, I smiled after every defeat. Fifteen years later it became too much. The burdens of others was too much for my tired back, that Mule could travel no longer. Call it selfishness but it turned out that I did desire one thing for myself after all: personality. And upon realising that I had sacrificed my happiness, my personality, my being, for the whims an...
Singing our woes to sleep
What helps you through mental health or happiness struggles? For me one of my core struggles is loneliness. It is so deeply ingrained within me like a deep rooted tree that only a giant could uproot from where it stands. As some of you know, I have a deep affinity with music. But I also have to be careful with music, due to bipolar, lest I get too excited, too energised and set myself up to fail within the hour, then build myself up again, then fall back down again and so forth. When music is helping me gently find optimism in careful dosages I like loud, thoughtful songs, as well as quiet, engaging songs and really plenty of other styles and manners which inhabit the many songs I have listened to over time. If you usually listen to songs sung in a form of English and desire to try something new, you may want to try listening to Priscilla Betti's music on Youtube. She is a French singer whom also has English sung songs uploaded, such as a cover of "It's raining men...
Why is anyone attracted to anyone?
Being a natural psychologist I find myself attracted to ideas and curiosities as much as and sometimes more than what you may term an actual psychologist. Now...I am pretty damn sure that there was far more to this post already written! Sadly it has either been lost digitally or perhaps lost among a document somewhere, if I had the foresight to save a copy there. For now, I shall post this as is, so you can see what my thinking was-I was intending to write up on my theories of attraction, using examples of Friends and also famous individuals, such as the pictured Avril Lavigne.
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It was my delight to interview the incumbent Prime Minister, Theresa May, for our upcoming autobiographical project. Before I delve deeply into just what depths we traversed together, I would like to provide you, as a preface of sorts, a small transcribing of our interview. Theresa May: Hello, good Sir. How do you do? Myself (Barry.): Hello, Prime Minister. TM: You sounded awfully like Sir Humphrey just then (She chuckled.). M: Yes...yes...you are a quick study. Glad sarcasm is not lost on you (He whispered.). TM: I'm adamant -Theresa shifts about on her seat- that we focus on my premiership and not on my past. M: Oh no trouble with that! None at all! No-one knew who you were yesterday! TM: Pardon? (She attempts a weak grin.) M: Er, no-one...knew who you really were...now that you are...PM...er, we know better, you are so much more intimate with us-no! NO scrap that! I never said that...er, bad choice of words...um, let's, let's start with you...your ...
Have you ever known someone you wish to be all for? To be for them everything possible and all the rest. Friend. Teacher. Parent. Sister. Partner. This grief is strangling me again night by night. Would it be any less if I had confided in her better my feelings? No. I am posting this blog in 2018. I started it some time in 2017 and was not able to finish it for one reason or another, mostly from being busy and struggling with feelings, I suppose. I have noticed ten or so other posts that I will post as is or finish up if I can.