Flashbacks, chronic anxiety and grieving

What I have been burning to say: #1

 Today is another day where I am really struggling with my flashbacks, sleep/insomnia, abuse, grief and anxiety.

Thoughts of Leyarnna and Simon and the abuse they waged against myself and other housemates, as well as the children they abused, continue to haunt me. West Midlands Police were absolutely useless and failed entirely to act and even now I do not know whether or not those children were ever rescued from those villains: drug dealers, compulsive liars, bullies, thieves and child abusers.

Leyarnna openly admitted to me that she sometimes drugged her children when they were "too much to handle."

L was the "psychologist." She would abuse then play the victim, claiming that she was vulnerable due to being a woman. S was the muscle and fellow drug dealer. They would threaten to have us chased by police, evicted, claimed we were bringing mice and fleas into the house, producing unsavoury smells (While they smoked cannabis-objectively an awful and permeating smell.), spying on them- their paranoia brought on by their drug abuse was deep and selfish. The damage, six years later, is still with me. I recall one of the moments where I carved the word "innocent" into my arm, with my blood, to desperately tell myself that I was not deserving of this abuse and needed to flee the house. It transpired that Eric, the landlord, knew, to some extent, of the bullying against me, as when, over the phone, he asked why I was leaving he said: "Is this about the bullying?" During my first week, my first week and it may even have been my first night, the two terrors played loud music and way past midnight, upsetting the neighbours and us inside and then blamed it on me. Me, whom had moved barely any possessions into the house. When not trying to start fights with us they would start fights with themselves. Supposedly L's car was stolen, due to some drug deal and at another point she saw a "boy" held at gunpoint but "patted away" the gun. I overheard her anonymously provide a specialist police line with details full of her usual wild stories. She was planning to escape to another country, in relation to some drug deal and made it clear that she would be turning on her "partner," "S," at the first opportunity.

For how much longer will these flashbacks remain? These sick individuals need to be tried. Is it worth contacting West Midlands Police yet again? I need to know what became of all victims involved. Were the children removed from their "care?" Did the other housemates escape? Was the landlord ever questioned by police?

Names are withheld to protect the children involved, myself and any ongoing police investigations, if any.